On my way------------->

I scratched my head completely caught short with number crunching yet again. On one hand, had my bench mate cracking the problem with such poise and on the other it was me, trying to weep my heart out on my ignorance. Variance in cost continued to be pain on my posterior lower apparatus. The guilt, of course, being that cover page of cost management book was yet to be seen, let alone the confusions and obnoxious concepts within. Yet I put up a brave face staring at the problem, with a desire as inviting as a neat virgin, calling me with darkness all around. Well,the artist in me can never agree for action half baked , visually challenged and deprived of the feast that’s supposed to be witnessed.

“I think I need to take this all over again. If a third ranker is struggling, I doubt if the message has reached yet” spoke the Dean. The great man had already taken the entire problem twice. And as always, I was blank absolutely incapable of even comprehending the basics. Dean was known for his magical ways of connecting with students and clearing ‘rocket science’ concepts in a lay man’s language. In spite, I was a written off entity within my mind, with a lid so closed that refused to open when it came to numbers. The only exception was the Aryabhatta’s invention which more often or not showed its ugly face on my evaluation.

“Include me too, even the class second lost in thoughts” a voice spoke up. Oh, what a pride she took in saying that, I wondered. May be she had done an invention in archaeology, launched space shuttle at NASA, found cure for a clueless pandemic or been a noble prize winner for peace. Ah wait a minute, my brains turned on and said… she had indeed been class second in the just concluded exams, and oh yes what an amazing feat that was. A record as funny as bringing the sky down or just another worthless babble confined to the stinking age old assessment techniques. Nevertheless, she was at least there blowing her own trumpet as loud as possible trying to garner attention with decibels as neatly structured as a hopeless cacophony!

With all said I struggled my way through and completed the given problems. By the time the session got done, I had decided that I’ve got to go all out, without the fear of falling flat on my face. The alter ego standing in as a devil within me had to be pacified. Well structured KRA was laid down for my own subconscious...” nothing short of commitment and hard work will take me through the safe waters” I spoke to myself. I might not break into top 5 or may be not even above class average, but I decided to kill the self created numero- impotency.

And yeah….without any inhibition, have started working towards cost and finance….absolutely undocked by the rat race and self proclaimed rotten claim to top in the class. A peaceful eager month waits before the actual knowledge test happens within me, the novice seeking a complete individualistic soul on this planet